hey janice :)
i'm really happy that you are making your dreams come true. i know you have mixed feelings about it but always remember that CHANGE IS GOOD :)
keep in touch girl. i want to share with you an entry in the journal of one of my favorite writers, paulo coelho about change.
love, rhea
Change.
But start slowly, because direction is more
important than speed.
Sit in another chair, on the other side of the
table.
Later on, change tables.
When you go out, try to walk on the other side
of the street. Then
change your route, walk calmly down other streets,
observing closely the
places you pass by.
Take other buses. Change your wardrobe for a
while; give away your
old shoes and try to walk barefoot for a few days -
even if only at
home.
Take off a whole afternoon to stroll about
freely, listening to the
birds or the noise of the cars.
Open and shut the drawers and doors with your
left hand.
Sleep on the other side of the bed. Then try
sleeping in other
beds.
Watch other TV programs, read other books, live
other romances -
even of only in your imagination.
Sleep until later. Go to bed earlier.
Learn a new word a day.
Eat a little less, eat a little more, eat
differently; choose new
seasonings, new colors, things you have never dared
to experiment.
Lunch in other places, go to other restaurants,
order another kind
of drink and buy bread at another bakery.
Lunch earlier, have dinner later, or
vice-versa.
Try something new every day: a new side, a new
method, a new
flavor, a new way, a new pleasure, a new position.
Pick another market, another make of soap,
another toothpaste.
Take a bath at different times of the day.
Use pens with different colors.
Go and visit other places.
Love more and more and in different ways. Even
when you think that
the other will be frightened, suggest what you have
always dreamed about
doing when you make love.
Change your bag, your wallet, your suitcases,
buy new glasses,
write other poems.
Open an account in another bank, go to other
cinemas, other
hairdressers, other theaters, visit new museums.
Change. And think seriously of finding another
job, another
activity, work that is more like what you expect
from life, more
dignified, more human.
If you cannot find reasons to be free, invent
them: be creative.
And grab the chance to take a long, enjoyable
trip - preferably
without any destination.
Try new things. Change again. Make another
change. Experiment
something else.
You will certainly know better things and worse
things than those
you already know, but that does not matter. What
matters most is change,
movement, dynamism, energy.
Only what is dead does not change - and you are
alive.
